Zombie+clown= : )

Recently Chelsea and I were having a conversation about zombies, well I was talking about zombies and Chelsea was listening to me rant, and I commented on the lack of zombie clown's in film. Now I love zombies and find them extremely fascinating, but if I ever encountered a zombie clown I would probably just wet myself and run home. So when I found out that there was going to be a zombie clown appearance in the upcoming "Zombieland" film, Well I got a little excited. Here he is in all his bloody childhood nightmare glory:

I'm realizing

that I haven't learned as much as I convinced myself I have.

R.I.P. Papa

On July 3rd I got a call that my grandfather had passed away. It was unexpected because he was 82 years old and still very healthy. As I type this I'm sitting in his house on lake michigan where I've been for the last week with my dad and two brothers. It's been a week full of good memories, looking through old pictures and news clippings, and looking in all the nooks and crannys I was never allowed to explore.

I've also accumulated some possessions from this house that remind me of my grandpa such as his old brown chair and all his old pipes that he used to smoke. Just the smell alone takes me back to when he would sit down and in that chair, pack his pipe and smoke and read his books and magazines. I also got his long bow and a mug that my dad bought for him when he was just a boy. My grandpa was a great man and I will miss him very much.

The funniest part of this week has to be the discovery of my grandpa's gun collection. Before I got up here my uncle was cleaning out his room and found a loaded revolver in his night stand! What he needed that for I don't know but this led to the revealing of his collection that I, up to this point, had no idea about. Here is a picture of his collection and a list of the all the guns in the house.

Stevens 12 gauge Dbl. Barrel model 3iL Series H B

Union Machine 10 gauge Dbl. Barrel

Marlin semi Automatic 22 w/ Bushnell scope

Winchester model 90 22 Wrf Pump

Winchester model 1906 22 Pump

Winchester model 90 22 pump

Colt 38 Caliber police positive Revolver

S & W 38 Caliber Special Revolver

H & R 32 Caliber Revolver (5 shot)

Forehand Arms 32 Gal. Revolver

Marlin 22 Revolver (7 shot)

Allens Patent muzzle load (Single) W/Mold 1845

Frontier Navy Revolver

Wooden Muzzle loader single shot



Here is the gun that was found loaded in his night stand:



This week has been full of both sad and happy memories. I'm glad I got to come up here with my family and have this time to remember a great man. Rest in peace papa. Love you always.

Once again

life feels stale. No creativity, no passion and no change. I really need to get out of this town and back where I have time to do what I love. I'm sick of waking up and feeling like I have nothing to look forward to all day. I love everyone here but i feel like i'm losing myself in the constant movement of life. I need silence and time to write music, take pictures, write lyrics, watch my favorite movies, and listen to my favortie albums all the way through without having to go somewhere or do something for somebody else. Hopefully these next two weeks will bring me back from the grave.

esoteric

–adjective

1. understood by or meant for only the select few who have special knowledge or interest; recondite: poetry full of esoteric
allusions.
2. belonging to the select few.
3. private; secret; confidential.
4. (of a philosophical doctrine or the like) intended to be revealed only to the initiates of a group: the esoteric doctrines of
Pythagoras.

Our love is esoteric...Heard by few, but meaningful to those who hear it.

So I was driving home from work today...

and it dawned on me how happy singing makes me. I can't remember the last time I've gone a whole day without singing a song or just singing anything. The sheer joy I get out of singing along to songs I don't even know the words to while I'm driving to work is amazing! I wish people sang together more. People are so uptight about singing in front of others, me included. I wish I could drive around with a car full of friends and have everybody do a different harmony to "Bohemian Rhapsody".

On a side note, I saw Copeland on saturday at the mix tape in Grand Rapids! I really liked the venue. Mainly because I got to stand on the bench seats they have against the wall so i could see right over the crowd. Barcelona and Sherwood opened. Barcelona was more memorable than Sherwood and sounded at least ten times better. Copeland was exactly what I thought it would be. A dreamy sing-a-long that I wish could have kept going all night. Overall it was a sweet show!

In other other news I'm moving back up to Kalamazoo next week and I couldn't be more stoked to be done with beaches and moving into my new apartment. Well kind of. For the next month I'll be living in Chelsea's apartment because our lease is up on the 31st of july and we can't move into our new place until August 29th. LLLLAAAAAAAMMMMMMEEEEEEE....But it worked out so that I can live at Chels's for the month to try and find a job. Thanks again chels. ; )