Once again

life feels stale. No creativity, no passion and no change. I really need to get out of this town and back where I have time to do what I love. I'm sick of waking up and feeling like I have nothing to look forward to all day. I love everyone here but i feel like i'm losing myself in the constant movement of life. I need silence and time to write music, take pictures, write lyrics, watch my favorite movies, and listen to my favortie albums all the way through without having to go somewhere or do something for somebody else. Hopefully these next two weeks will bring me back from the grave.

esoteric

–adjective

1. understood by or meant for only the select few who have special knowledge or interest; recondite: poetry full of esoteric
allusions.
2. belonging to the select few.
3. private; secret; confidential.
4. (of a philosophical doctrine or the like) intended to be revealed only to the initiates of a group: the esoteric doctrines of
Pythagoras.

Our love is esoteric...Heard by few, but meaningful to those who hear it.

So I was driving home from work today...

and it dawned on me how happy singing makes me. I can't remember the last time I've gone a whole day without singing a song or just singing anything. The sheer joy I get out of singing along to songs I don't even know the words to while I'm driving to work is amazing! I wish people sang together more. People are so uptight about singing in front of others, me included. I wish I could drive around with a car full of friends and have everybody do a different harmony to "Bohemian Rhapsody".

On a side note, I saw Copeland on saturday at the mix tape in Grand Rapids! I really liked the venue. Mainly because I got to stand on the bench seats they have against the wall so i could see right over the crowd. Barcelona and Sherwood opened. Barcelona was more memorable than Sherwood and sounded at least ten times better. Copeland was exactly what I thought it would be. A dreamy sing-a-long that I wish could have kept going all night. Overall it was a sweet show!

In other other news I'm moving back up to Kalamazoo next week and I couldn't be more stoked to be done with beaches and moving into my new apartment. Well kind of. For the next month I'll be living in Chelsea's apartment because our lease is up on the 31st of july and we can't move into our new place until August 29th. LLLLAAAAAAAMMMMMMEEEEEEE....But it worked out so that I can live at Chels's for the month to try and find a job. Thanks again chels. ; )